Sunday 27th December 2009 Rainy

I don't know why but I find it hard to express myself.

Sometimes its not that I don't take that certain thing to heart

but it's because I just don't know how to express myself.

Like when I am upset about something

I just find it hard to say that I am upset about it.

Instead I put up a strong front and looked like

I didn't bother about that certain thing.

However, I know that its not true.

Like sometimes my father would complain how

I did not care for my grandparents when

I did not apper upset when my grandma got sick.

This is not it.

Of course I care for them but what did he want me to do ?

Roll on the floor then cry out loud ?

Sometimes I feel people around me don't know me

Well to understand how I am feeling