6th January 2010 Wednesday Rainy

I don't know how to describe my feeling right now.

Confusion, lost, pain, hurt...

I was praying for God for some sort of miracle.

I pray that when my grandmother's report come out, it will be a positive one.

However, No.

She is officially diagnose with cancer.

I don't understand why is this happening to me.

Is God testing my faith towards him ?

Cause if it is I just want to say that I am still standing strong in him.

I just want a miracle...