Flashbacks were beginning to flood my mind.

I can't fall asleep so I decided to write out my thoughts.

I am very scared

Really very scared

I tell myself not to be scared but I can't

I wanted to push it out of my mind but I can't

It seems writing out is the best way for me to express the hurt and pain I feel

I wanted to ask God why is this thing coming back to me again

I wanted to know if something bad is about to happen

I want to be prepared.

The hurt will fade someday, I know

Maybe the pain will lessen as time past.